Next week I will undergo hip replacement surgery. My left hip has been bothering me so much that most daily activities have become painful. With the knee replacement I waited for about 10 years, hoping for the invention of technology to reverse cartilage degeneration, doing lots of physical therapy and muscle building, and always having something more important to do than dealing with my knee. So now no more, I am going to take care of it so that I can enjoy an active, pain free lifestyle.
Some say that hips are related directly to the second chakra, that hip pain is a sign of held emotions and fear of intimacy, and that energy in the hips can be an indication that one is not ready to let go of the past and move forward. Ah well. That all might be so and yet it is also clear that I have arthritis in the hip joint that will never be cured and with time will just get worse.
This preparatory time is quite the opportunity for expansion and wakefulness! Under the magnifying glass of my awareness a thousand and one microscopic invitations for being present have appeared. The way I pull on my socks. How I bend down to pick up something from the floor. The manner in which I move around, make my tea in the morning. How I carry my bag or sit down on the toilet seat. How I curl up on my side and reach out to pet my Wonderdog Coco in the morning when we both wake up. How I tie my shoelaces and take off my undies and fill up the dog bowl, and sweep the floor and dust the cabinet. How I move when I dance, in a moment of high ecstasy, enveloped by loud, rhythmic music, not caring much about the pain in my hip. How I shift gears in my car.
I mean – everything! Every single moment has become an opportunity for growth and attentiveness.
None of these “things” I’m used to will be possible for me for a while after the surgery, at least not in their usual, mundane, almost automatic way. Facing this reality I am very acutely aware of how much I still – even after all I have been through – take for granted. And how much goes on every moment without me even noticing!
Watching it like the bright light dot of a laser pointer darting here and there, shining on the minute, I am quietly amazed at the intricacy of everything.
“Meditation means being in the moment, not leaving this moment. Someone asked Buddha, ‘How shall we meditate?’ Buddha replied, ‘Whatsoever you do, do it with awareness; this is meditation. Walking, walk attentively, as if walking is everything; eating, eat with awareness, as if eating is everything; rising, rise with awareness; sitting, sit with awareness; all your actions become conscious, your mind does not travel beyond this moment, it remains in the moment, settles in the moment – this is meditation.’ […]
So understand well that meditation is not just one of life’s innumerable activities. It is not just one link in the chain of man’s endless doings. It is like the thread on which all the flowers of a garland have been strung. Meditation is a lifestyle, not an activity. If one is meditative in everything one is doing, if the thread is running through each of the flowers, only then a garland is created. The thread is not even visible, it is hidden underneath the flowers. Nor can the meditator be seen; he is present, but hidden behind all the activities being done through him.” ~ © Osho, gratefully excerpted from Nowhere To Go But In