The following is an expanded version of a blog post I recently wrote for Ecstatic Living Institute, co-founded by my late husband Steve and me in 1999. Most couples come to my coaching because they want to prioritize each other and their relationship. Overwhelmed with everyday responsibilities and obligations, they often feel disconnected from each other, and they have lost touch with what brought them together in the first place. Making time for each other and focusing on the relationship has become a challenge for them rather than a pleasure. Sexual intimacy is rare, if happening at all.
“Life gets in the way”, is a common phrase people use to describe this phenomenon. What life, I wonder? Life is always here; this is it! The circumstances are what gets in the way. Mind you, oftentimes you do not have the actual time to do a long tantric practice or spend hours making love.
Now your mind tells you that really, you should connect with your partner, you should be doing your practice, you should be making love, and if you don’t do it, you have failed. Or everything is your partner’s fault. You get grumpy and do not connect but instead turn away from your partner, so that you don’t have to see the disappointment and disconnection in their eyes; feelings that you probably both share. You give yourself a hard time for not making the time to reach out; for not having enough commitment to spending dedicated time together. A chasm opens up and you see your beloved far away over there on the other side.
I have been coaching my clients in various ways to dissolve this conundrum, and following are a few very simple ideas that many lovers have found useful. Every couple is different, yet we somehow all are the same.
One way is to simply accept that it is so, and to stop fighting with what is. You do not make the time. Period. Your relationship plays fourth or fifth fiddle in the symphony of your life. You are doing everything else but connecting with your partner. So it is. To accept this fact is its own special practice! In my experience, acceptance is often the first step towards change, so you might be surprised what happens when you accept the way things are. The tense internal struggle makes way for the peaceful space of acceptance. Anything is possible then.
Another idea is to encourage the couple to give as many short moments a day as possible to practicing intimacy. A moment of breathing together, of gazing at your partner with loving eyes. Of exchanging compliments. Of melting into a hug that last longer than 30 seconds. Of offering understanding and compassion. Of giving attention to them. Saying a proper goodbye before your beloved goes off somewhere alone, without you: to work, to pick up groceries, to get some fresh air, to clear their mind – yes, even after a fight. Opening your hearts to each other, however brief. Every single moment counts and these short moments add up. Can you be intimate with your partner 100 times a day?
Recently I guided a couple in an online coaching session through an abbreviated version of the Breath of Tantric Love the powerful breathing practice that has become many couples’ favorite. It was morning, right before they went off to work. Witnessing them was very moving – now or never, was the flavor of this moment. They connected deeply very quickly. When the practice was over, they were astonished to learn that just 15 minutes had passed; it had been so effortless to let go of any resistance, to open their hearts, to see the divine it each other, and to melt into the timelessness of their intimate connection. And now, after barely 15 minutes of looking into each other’s eyes, breathing together, embracing each other – their day took on a whole new dimension.
Especially after what I have been through in the past four years it is disheartening for me to see couples drift apart when in truth they want to be close, sharing love and intimacy. Life is so short! Really, this is what motivates me to continue teaching seminars and coaching couples in Tantra: to share what I have learned from the many years of tantric partnership, from being on the spiritual path of Tantra since I was 15 years old, and from having gone through (and re-emerging from) the most traumatic and confronting yet miraculously transformative experiences of my life.
To inspire you, too, to be fully awake to the privilege of being in life together. It is never ever a given! Let’s not forget that.
My question for you is this – if you knew for sure that you were going to die tomorrow, would you be able to make time for your partner today?
“The ordinary idea of time is that it is like a river that is flowing by your side. That which has passed is the past; that which is passing is the present; that which is going to pass is the future – as if time is the flux, a movement, and you are standing and time goes on moving.
But it is not true that you are standing still because once you were a child, now you were young, now you are old, now you are dead. You are not standing still; you are continuously changing. Because of this fact there have been philosophers who propounded a second theory: the time is static, it is always the same, what changes is you. You are the flux: From childhood to youth, from youth to old age, from old age to beyond. Because you cannot conceive your own changing process – it is so subtle and so quick – you project it on time.
Nobody knows what time is, where time is. Nobody has ever seen it. Nobody has ever touched it. Nobody has ever come to grips with time and its existence.”
~Osho, gratefully quoted from Satyam Shivam Sunderam – Truth Godliness Beauty, Discourse #22
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