Surrender: Giving Myself to that which is highest

Cancer is a peculiar experience. When I first spoke about it, people tried to be reassuring with sentences containing words like “fight” and “battle”.

I don’t want to fight this cancer in a battle. This is not a war. For me, this is about total surrender – surrender to the reality of the body – it gets sick, it will die (one day), we can not make a plan for anything.

I lied down on the MRI table today, placed my head into the head cradle, breathed fresh air through an oxygen tube and became so completely relaxed into this surrender! It was pure bliss. In a strange place, but bliss nevertheless.

When I speak or write about this cancer journey, it is with acceptance and love, and not with the vocabulary of the battlefield. Please join me in this quest.

“One has to become feminine. One has to become receptive rather than being aggressive. One has to learn the art of relaxation rather than learning the strategies of how to conquer the world and the reality. Truth is not going to be a conquest, it is going to be a total surrender. One has to become a host, one has to open up, one has to be just a receptivity so the wind can come in, the rain can come in, the sun can come in. And just hidden behind the sun and the rain and the wind one day comes the Guest. And the Guest does not come from the outside, it arises within you. God is the Guest.” – OSHO