Email: Bad News
Dearest Friends,
24 hours have passed since my devastating follow-up visit with the breast oncology specialist here in Costa Rica. I was informed that pathology diagnosed metaplastic carcinoma in my left breast. It was tough. Really tough.
So now what — basically, it is a very rare and invasive form of breast cancer, and in Costa Rica they have not seen it much. They offered to provide the physician’s care for me for free but I would have to be the guinea pig for them. Needless to say that it is not my preferred treatment option!
So I called in a favor from a good friend who arranged a phone consultation for me with a top cancer care specialist in Marin County today, where I will go on August 3rd. Next Saturday I leave Costa Rica, who knows for how long. Steve is going to stay back for a few weeks to deal with our house and dogs here, and until the diagnosis is clear and the treatment path planned out. Then he will come to the US and we will most likely stay there for about a year.
I will have the choice of dealing with the treatment at Marin General Hospital or at Stanford University Hospital — possibly mastectomy (with reconstruction), 6 months chemotherapy, 2+ months radiation and who knows – and maybe it might not even work.
I am petrified with shock and bewilderment. Nine months of hell – many biopsies, pain, ultrasound exams, different diagnoses, blood tests, creams, emotional stress, reassurances etc etc – and now this.
Please hold Steve and me in your meditation and prayers. It is an incredibly difficult time for both of us.
Hugs and love to you,
Lokita
I am so sorry to hear of your illness. I too had cancer. But it is gone. I too triple doses of NOW Brand Ojibwa Tea Concentrate- liquid form and it killed it out. I have known of 21 others who only took it and are cancer free too. Ages from 22-80 have only had great results. All kinds of cancer too- breast, uterine, skin, colon, prostate, liver,thyroid, whole body with 2 weeks to live after the VA hospitol did chemo & radiation and sent him home to die–that is 17 years ago and he is still on the tea and feeling great, etc. If it was me(which it has been!) I would take the tea either alone 3 times a day and 3 times the amount or take it the same along with the other medical treatments, to feel better and kill it out permanently. I wish you the best healing experience. Theanna
Dearest Lokita,
Logan Rose sent an email today, and I was shocked to hear of the news…..what a difficult time this part of your journey brings……and how much pain and suffering you have endured all of these months, not to mention the emotional roller coaster you have been on. I have read all of your posts…..how courageous you are, and how true, to go at this in the way of battle, is not coming from a place of love. Osho’s quote you shared:
” Love is the most healing force in the world.”
“Nothing goes deeper than love. It heals not only the body, not only the mind, but also the soul. If one can love then all one´s wounds disappear. The physical health is a superficial phenomenon. It can happen through medicine, it can happen through science. But the innermost core of one´s being can be healed only through love. Those who know the secret of love know the greatest secret of life. ~OSHO” has touched me deeply, as it reinforces my own healing path.
And to me, as an outsider looking in to what you share, I notice that you are indeed in the battle front with your beautiful body (breast), in the method you have chosen to heal ……”I will have the choice of dealing with the treatment at Marin General Hospital or at Stanford University Hospital — possibly mastectomy”…..invasion and massacre….. “(with reconstruction),”……after the desecration a rebuilding…….” 6 months chemotherapy,”……poisoning…….” 2+ months radiation”……burning……..” and who knows – and maybe it might not even work”. And as you say, “and maybe it might not even work.”….the outcome of all battles is never a sure one. I feel your pain, your fear, and even frustration…….maybe rage.
A question comes to mind…..are you open to looking at natural treatments….outside of the orthodox medical model? If so, I would be happy to share….if not, I fully respect the journey you are on…..everyone’s journey is sacred, and pray for your quick healing and recovery.
I hold both you and Steve in my prayers and meditations, and send my love to you….as you have shared in your previous post…..love heals all….I hold that vision for you.
Love and blessings,
Heidi